Have blogs to design, blog posts to write, and a house that needs to be cleaned (and still has unpacked boxes taking up some valuable floor space), but went to the park this morning instead. My boys are growing up so fast and I don't want them to only remember mom glued to her computer/phone working.
If you haven't seen this yet, please go read this post called How to Miss a Childhood. It really opened my eyes (and made me feel even more guilty of course).
What is about this Mommy-Guilt??? Even stay-at-home moms such as myself feel that they don't spend enough time with their kids. And I constantly have older couples smiling at my boys and telling me that I better enjoy it because they don't stay small forever. Thanks for the additional guilt...
I have said it before and I will stay it again; women can do it all, but not at the same time. Time is quickly slipping away and I get so busy and caught up with needless worries that I am afraid I am going to wake up one morning to an empty house and wonder why I stressed so much about the messy yard and house, piles of dirty laundry, unfinished jobs, unwritten letters, and monthly bills when I had two little amazing miracles begging for me to just stop working already and play with them.
Midlife crisis? Maybe. I wish I were like a man and could just go buy a flashy car and ogle 20 to 30-somethings at the beach. But I would feel guilty wasting the kid's college fund and worry about high car insurance rates and that the 20-something I was admiring was really only 13... No, I am going to spend my time having a nervous breakdown because I bought into the idea that I could do it all even thought I know it is a complete lie.
The kids have vacation bible school each evening this week and that means date-night with my husband the rest of the week. I am really looking forward to it. I know he will talk some sense into me. Or convince me we both need corvettes. ;-)
